1.5 year update following MM methods!

I shared this last week on my Facebook page (I share a lot more over there! Intentional Existence Ruth ) and I thought it would be good to share it here as well!


“Just wanted to give an update on my 1.5 year mark since starting seriously working to heal myself.

I started with MM’s methods in February of 2016, although I had already gone vegan/gluten free a month prior. When I found the book I was already doing a lot of what was suggested so I KNEW it was for me!

I had dealt with years of anxiety, suicidal depression, unexplained vertigo and physical pain, daily headaches, and severe stroke-like migraines (to name a few!) I self medicated with alcohol for several years until I eventually got so sick I could no longer work. At that point I was diagnosed with cancer (a rare form of lymphoma, inoperable.)

I did 3 of my 6 scheduled rounds of aggressive chemotherapy before I quit against doctors orders. At that point I truly felt the chemo had done all it could and that it would take my life I didn’t stop. At that point I decided to change my life entirely!

I quit chemo in November 2015. I continued my meditation practice that I had begun during chemo and started very gentle yoga 5 mins a day. I started juicing and making smoothies. In December I gave up meat. In January I gave up gluten and dairy. I bought the book Medical Medium in February and that’s when I really began healing my body!

I’ve never done the full 28 day cleanse. I modified when I started with some cooked potatoes and veggies. After that I just followed the “What not to eat” recommendations and took many of the EBV and heavy metal detox supplements/foods. By 4 months in I was feeling MAJOR improvements!

Here I am, 1.5 years into the MM protocol and I’ve never felt better! My mind and heart are more clear than they’ve ever been! Is my body in 100% perfect wellness all the time? No. But MOSTLY I am great! I even had another baby when they told me I likely couldn’t after the chemo! My body continues to heal as time goes on, even though I don’t eat perfect all the time! (I accidentally had some beans that had lard in them yesterday! OOOPS!) When I do “mess up” my body doesn’t react like it did when I was in the thick of healing. And I don’t beat myself up mentally either. The key is to believe that what we are doing IS ENOUGH to heal!

Moral of the story, KEEP GOING! Don’t give up! What you are doing is enough and you MUST believe that!! It takes time! It takes FOCUS! It takes putting your energy into health instead of illness! ALWAYS follow your intuition!! Much love to you all!!! Heal on Healers!”mememe

EASY Vegan Gluten Free Garlic Parmesan BBQ Pizza



I LOVE pizza! But seriously, who doesn’t? My family likes to order pizza now and then, and even though I won’t eat the take-out variety, that doesn’t mean I have to miss out! I came up with this delicious creations over the weekend and I’m still dreaming about it!


Gluten free crust, vegan garlic parmesan sauce, topped with a little BBQ sauce, Brussels sprouts, and onions…. YUM!!! I made a small one, which I ate in one sitting. (It was ONLY 4 pieces!! 😉 ) This recipe is for one twice as large, so would feed two people. If I were feeding the whole family I would double this recipe and make two pizzas. This recipe is vegan, gluten free, soy free, processed sugar free, and corn free.


Easy Vegan Gluten Free Pizza


2 cups gluten free baking flour (I use Bob’s)

1 cup water

1/2 tsp sea salt

1 TBLS olive oil

1 tsp baking powder (I use aluminum free)

1 Tbls Pure Maple Syrup

  1. Preheat oven to 350
  2. Put all crust ingredients in blender and pulse a few times to mix well.
  3. Pour crust mix into well greased baking dish. (I used a glass 11×7 dish that I greased with coconut oil.)
  4. Bake for 15 minutes then remove from oven.


Vegan Garlic Parmesan Sauce

1/4 cup raw unsalted cashews

2 garlic cloves whole +2 garlic cloves minced

1/2 cup water +1/4 cup water

2 TBLS chopped onion

1 TBLS olive oil

1/2 tsp sea salt

1/8 tsp pepper

1/2 tsp onion powder

1/2 tsp garlic powder

1 tsp lemon juice

Pinch curry powder

Pinch tumeric

(I have found the curry and tumeric replace a bit of the “cheesy” flavor. But literally, just use a tiny bit. More is not better.)


  1. Add all ingredients except minced garlic and 1/4 cup water to small sauce pan.
  2. Simmer on low-medium for 10 minutes.
  3. Put into blender and blend until smooth.
  4. Add back to sauce pan. Shake 1/4 cup water in blender cup (to get any extra sauce left over) then add to pan.
  5. Add minced garlic and heat on low for 5 mins. You can add more water a tsp at a time if you want a thinner sauce.


Other Ingredients:

Your favorite BBQ sauce

Steamed Brussels sprouts (sliced)

Sliced Onion

1 TBLS Olive oil

1 TBLS Coconut oil

1/4 tsp Sea salt

1/2 tsp Onion powder

1/2 tsp Garlic powder

1/4 tsp Italian seasoning

1 large garlic clove, minced

Final Instructions:

  1. Mix together oils, spices, salt, and minced garlic. Use spoon to rub around edges of crust, saving a little to drizzle on to at the end.
  2. Add vegan parmesan sauce. Drizzle on a little bbq sauce.
  3. Add toppings. (sliced Brussels sprouts and onion.)
  4. Drizzle with remaining oil mixture
  5. Bake for approx. 10 minutes at 450 or until crust browns slightly and onions cook.
  6. Remove from oven, cut, and enjoy!







Peanut Butter Squares!!(Vegan, Gluten Free, Soy Free, No processed sugar)


Did your school cafeteria serve these growing up? I practically lived off them during high school. The traditional peanut butter square is full of less than desirable ingredients. I don’t generally consume peanut butter, but pregnancy cravings are tough! So I decided to make a healthed-up version to fit my dietary preferences. I’ve also made these using sunflower seed butter, but that’s expensive and gives me a stomach ache if I over eat it, which I always do. Haha. 
This recipe is vegan, gluten free, soy free, and processed sugar free. 
Peanut Butter Squares
Chocolate Layer:

1/2 cup organic unrefined coconut oil

1/4 cup cocoa powder 

1/4 cup pure maple syrup

1/4 tsp sea salt

1/2 tsp vanilla
Peanut Butter Layer:


2 cups oat flour

1/4 cup organic unrefined coconut oil

1/3 cup organic peanut butter (Check label for sugar)

1/4 cup pure maple syrup

1/2 tsp sea salt

1 tsp vanilla

1/4 cup almond milk

  1. Mix together all chocolate layer  ingredients. Mix until well combined.
  2. In a large mixing bowl, combine all peanut butter layer ingredients. 
  3. Mix until well combined.
  4. Press peanut butter mixture into a dish. Size depends on how thick you like them. I used a 6×8 dish.
  5. Spread chocolate layer evenly over the peanut butter layer.
  6. Chill for at least one hour.
  7. Keep refrigerated as chocolate will melt at room temperature.

Hope you enjoy these as much as my family does!!! 

Apple-Cranberry Oatmeal

If you’re like me and still trying use up excess cranberry sauce from Thanksgiving, here’s an idea! I usually eat raw for breakfast but some days I’m just not into it, especially as the mornings grow colder. And that’s okay! On the days I eat hot foods for breakfast I’m usually satisfied with a simple salad for lunch. As you’ll hear me say time and time again, aknowledging your body’s needs is far more important than following some strict guidlines set by your ego. 

I’ll get to it. This oatmeal was super yummy and still contained some of the fruit I like to enjoy in the morning. This recipe is vegan, gluten free (if using gluten free oats), soy free, and processed sugar free (depending on how you prepared your cranberry sauce. I used maple syrup and honey in mine.) 

Apple-Cranberry Oatmeal

1 cup water

1 Apple

1 cup quick oats

1/4 tsp vanilla

1/4 tsp sea salt (Or to taste)

1/4 tsp cinnamon 

Dash of allspice

1 TBLS honey or pure maple syrup

2 TBLS cranberry sauce

2 TBLS chopped pecans

  1. Heat water in sauce pan on stove.
  2. Chop apple into small pieces and add to water. Simmer for 1 or 2 minutes.
  3. Add honey (Or maple), vanilla, sea salt, cinnamon, allspice. Simmer for a minute or 2 more.
  4. Add oats. Stir and heat to desired consistency. (I like mine more towards uncooked so I usually turn off the heat right after I add the oats.)
  5. Spoon on cranberry sauce and mix in as much as you like. (I like mine to stay in “globs” and to not be mixed in well.)
  6. Top with chopped pecans and enjoy! 

    Drop a ccomment with how you use up extra cranberry sauce! ❤ 

    I did this thing today… 

    Okay. I am seriously more excited about a decision I made than I thought I would be! Today I became a Beachbody Coach. Before you dismiss this as just another annoying person trying to sell you something, hear me out on my reasoning. 
    I’ll try to keep this as brief as possible but if you know me you know I can be rather long winded. 🙂 

    • I’ve been searching for a way to better connect with those of you who would like to join in on what I do. (Living a healthy lifestyle and focusing on wellness.)
    • The programs can give those who may otherwise not know where to begin a healthier lifestyle, an organized starting point in which to cultivate a good relationship with physical and emotional wellness.
    • The Beachbody programs Insanity and Turbojam were the first things to get me interested in health and fitness, way back in 2010. 😉
    • Being a coach will allow me to grow stronger friendships with like-minded people and to be a part of a “girl’s club”. (Not to say that men aren’t welcomed!)
    • Working out along with others will help me to keep my body moving during the colder months when I can’t get outdoors. 
    • I LOVED owning my own business and I am truly very excited to do it again. I’m really looking forward to growing another, because the journey is where the fun is!
    • I get to run this the way I want and I will put emphasis on the areas that are most important in my eyes (not numbers on a scale but how we FEEL in life is what matters most.)
    • Lastly offering a product to purchase helps people to stay accountable and focused on their lifestyle changes. If there is anything I’ve learned from previously being a business owner, it’s that people have a greater appreciation for things they pay for. 

    The thought of becoming a Beachbody coach has crossed my mind on many occasions since I first found the company. Most of the coaches made the business seem flat in emotions and a bit stuffy. It came off as very “sales-y” and that’s just not who I am. I’ve been following a girl online all year who has shown me that you can truly help people, while also growing in yourself, and be successful while doing so. Who would have thought?! I wouldn’t have believed it if it hadn’t been proven by her example. Now she’s my mentor and I cannot wait to learn more from her. (Her name is Laura Verbich if you want to look her up!) 

    I’m really looking forward to this new journey. I don’t know where it will take me, but I know I’m going somewhere. I also know that you can’t go wrong when your intentions are straight from the heart. Cheers to new beginings and staying wellness focused! Thanks for reading! ❤ 

    My (very) Personal Healing Journey

    You usually won’t find me talking about my past much these days. Although I have much love and appreciation for all the experiences I’ve had, there are a number of reasons why I choose to stay in the present. First and foremost, I believe a large part of healing is to remain consistently focused on wellness. A victim mentality will slow or even halt the healing process. I don’t identify with being ill. I gave that up in the midst of my battle with cancer. At my worst, I would sit and fill my notebook with the words “I am healthy.” I deeply believe that you get what you think about. Focusing on wellness was vital in my healing.

    I’ll start in the beginning. I had experienced anxiety for as long as I could remember. One of my earliest recollections is being on the school bus home from elementary school, heart racing, palms sweating, trying to use my rational mind to come up with a reason as to why I was upset. Was I going to get in trouble for my messy room?! Had I left my homework at school? It took me nearly 20 years to realize that much of my “anxiety” was a physical manifestation, and not so much of a mental issue.

    In my early teens I started experiencing severe depression, eventually becoming suicidal. I was put on a plethora of medications, none of which seemed to do anything but make me feel more disconnected. Antidepressants, antipsychotics… You name it and I had probably tried it. This all before I was 21. I gave up medications and lost my faith in the medical profession in 2008. My symptoms followed me well into adulthood and manifested as PMDD symptoms. Every month I found myself suicidal without reason. Again, my “rational” mind would come up with reasons. “My marriage must be failing.” “I’m a terrible mother.” “You wouldn’t feel this way if you were a good person.” I then developed an alcohol dependancy.

    Over the following years my physical symptoms also worsened. I was tired and experiencing severe bouts of vertigo. I had unexplained pains and crawling sensations all over my body. I developed severe migraines often with stoke-like symptoms. My thighs would hurt so badly at times that I couldn’t wear pants. I became obsessed with finding out what was wrong with me. My distrust of the medical establishment pushed me to believe I had to do it myself. I spent countless hours online, focused on researching what I was feeling. This was a huge error. I was consumed by being unwell. I had no choice but to get worse. Eventually I became so sick that I was unable to function at my fairly demanding job (which I loved.) In the summer of 2015 I was diagnosed with cancer.

    My youngest child was barely 1.5 years old and I was 28 when I got diagnosed with a rare form of Lymphoma. I wasn’t surprised at the diagnosis as I had done research and had spent a month prior trying to convince doctors. That lump in my chest that was “nothing” was actually a 10cm tumor that pressing on my heart and lung, had also collapsed my superior vena cava. I had such little fight left in me at that point that I agreed to chemotherapy.

    I was set to receive 6 rounds of aggressive chemotherapy. The nearest hospital offering this type of treatment was 2 hours away and required a 5 day stay each time. I won’t go into deep detail explaining the side effects of chemo. Everyone knows they are awful. I only made it as far as I did because of my amazing support system and the power of mediation and positive thought.

    By my third round of chemo I had had enough. I was hospitalized after each round due to my blood counts being so low that I would have died without. At this point every ounce of my being was screaming for me to STOP. I was experiencing bizarre hallucinations. 2 dimensional animations of what looked like cardboard cutouts would appear in my head, having absolutely nothing to do with what I was thinking or doing. But the worst was this horrifying feeling of wriggling inside myself, that I could best describe as feeling like my spirit was separating from my body. Against doctors orders, I quit chemo. By this time the tumor roughly measured to have shrunk to 1cm. It’s not uncommon for this type of cancer to leave a residual mass of 1cm, sometimes larger. I felt the chemo had done its job and would kill me if I continued. My intuition was pulling me toward furthering my healing naturally, emotionally, and spiritually.
    Through meditation and research I found that if I treated the core causes of the cancer that I could heal, and stay healed. The elusive Epstein Barr Virus (EBV) had come up in some early blood work but was “normal” and “inactive”. A deeper biopsy shower that my cancer was EBV positive and “rare” for it to present that way. The doctors didn’t know what that meant and subsequently paid it little attention. If I wanted to live I would have to find a way to treat the EBV. Without much available information on EBV, I began working to heal.

    First I gave up meat and dairy. A couple of weeks later I happened upon a Facebook post on EBV. There was a new cutting edge book out on the subject. I was a tad weary as the author (and book title) was labeled as Medical Medium. The author, Anthony Williams, was 100% on point with what I was going though and with what my own intuition had already guided me to do. It was thrilling to find this and have a little confirmation that I was on the right track! I made further dietary changes as suggested in the book, adding appropriate herbs and supplements. Immediately I was on my path to healing. The way it happened was all much too perfect to ignore or discredit.

    So here you find me, the end of 2016, pregnant with my 4th (yes 4th) child, and feeling better than ever! I still have a few things that will take longer to heal, but overall I feel better on all fronts! The anxiety is nearly nonexistent. I get down now and then, just as we all do, but I no longer imagine taking my life. Day in and day out I keep my focus on wellness. Although I now consider cancer to have been the greatest most life changing gift that I’ve ever experienced, I remain focused on my continued healing. I may have stayed in limbo, half dead, half alive, if it weren’t for my cancer experience, so far that I am deeply appreciative. In sharing this I wish to help others know their own power! We CAN heal, and we can do it together! Many hugs to you all. Thanks so much for reading. ❤

    On Intuition and Following Your Truth

    Intuition is something I hold in very high regard. Google defines it as “the ability to understand something immediately, without the need for conscious reasoning.” Merriam-Webster dictionary defines it as “quick and ready insight”. To me, intuition is a deep knowing, even without understanding how we know. It’s that feeling of “Definitely DO NOT do that.” without having an obvious reason.

    We are all born deeply intuitive beings, if only we allow it. Trusting in our own truth is a vital component in becoming more in tune with this natural ability. Intuition never fails, but our judgment and reasoning can quickly cloud it. Confidence and trust in our inner knowing helps to clear the fog.

    You might at this point be asking “What has this got to do with anything?” In my life, it has absolutely everything to do with everything! Connecting with our intuition is necessary for making the best choices that we can in order to move more smoothly into the lives we want. For example, I use my intuition for making all of my medical and dietary decisions. (Just a tip, doctors may give you a weird look when you tell them your decision is based off intuition. I know from experience. 😉 If something feels off or just not right I avoid it. And I avoid it not from fear as much as from knowing that my outcome will be much more in alignment with what I want if I listen to my truth. I gave up meat, dairy, and gluten because my intuition guided me, only to find out two weeks later that these foods were feeding a little known virus that had made me very ill.

    Does that mean you should give up meat, dairy, and gluten? Not necessarily. This leads me to my next point. What’s good for one is not always best for all. We are all very different. From our genetics to the ways we perceive the world around us, we are all individuals. Thus, another reason why following our own intuition or truth is absolutely vital. No one can tell us what is right for us but ourselves!

    I’m certainly not saying to stop doing research or gathering expert advice. But if we listen to our inner voice of truth we might be surprised to find the answers we already know! There is an abundance of conflicting information around every corner. Using our intuition is one way of sorting it out. (And a great way in my opinion!)

    We must take time out to quiet our minds and listen for the truth. The subject doesn’t matter. We won’t get the answer if we don’t ask the question.

    In a nutshell, our inner truth or intuition can be a valuable tool in moving towards our goals, whatever they may be. We must allow the tiny voice in us to grow. Trust that only you can make the choices that are important in creating the life you want. Live your truth!

    I would love to hear you opinions on intuition. Feel free to share your own stories of when intuition has come in handy!